in closing,

i would like to leave on this note

NEW BLOG!

http://tighterbluejeans.blogspot.com

miles and miles

this will be my last entry in this blog.
i'm not going to delete this blog, because i can't access my old flickr photos otherwise (hah). i've already got a name for another blog, which i'm going to start once i move (may). i'm excited. new chapter, new blog. i'm going for a whole different kind of thing with my new blog. i'm going to try and model it somewhat after other blogs i really enjoy.

those of you who i talk to regularly need not read further.

NEWS.
not breaking, but totally penetrating.

* MOVING! not anywhere exciting, but that's besides the point. for the first time ever, i will be living ON MY OWN. no more roommates (it's bittersweet). a bachelor. in the annex (my favourite neighbourhood): home to my favourite comic bookstore, bookstore, movie theatre, sushi place, and just all around favourite. and another first, i will not have a window facing a main street! it's very small, but i'm painting it, and i've already found some cute stuff for it... and it's mine.

* SEXING! me and ainslie (although yet to officially start) are working on an animation for sextv!

* COMIC-ING! me and nick have decided to try round 2 of creating comics together. not sure how this time it will pan out (but since my last years efforts sucked, i don't see that this could be worse). i'm taking the approach i learned in class, and am scripting it all out first (for my first "long" one - 22 pages-ish).

* EARNING! my friend and i both have the same day off this summer, so we are turning it into earning potential. more on this on my new blog in a couple weeks. she's an insanely amazing cook, and well, i'm just there, so together we are going to rock your taste buds into eternity. i'm going to be posting photos from this also, and we're making a facebook group. we both hope to earn enough to travel a bit. i want to use my $$ to visit my best friend in new york for a week.

also,
cannot wait to see THE STRANGERS.
ONE MONTH.

it's apparently a semi-rip on some french movie, but who cares, it looks awesome, and who doesn't miss liv tyler.
FUCK.


alright, see you in a few weeks.

tastes like butterscotch

YESSSSSSS
SUPERJAIL

can't wait

also, in case for some reason you haven't seen this because you actually happen to leave your house:
(fatal farm)

OR LASAGNA CAT!!!!



then watch it.

i have no real personal life updates that don't involve the words homework, cock or microwaveable pasta.
but i'm sure any week now i'll have an exciting infection, new hair tint or beer-related injury to weave a wizardy word spell on you.

use me as a doormat, i've got nine inch nails for threadbare

i know it may seem as if i've given up on this blog, and basically i have.
however, i will continue to update more frequently as i prepare (and yes this time i mean it, as i have come into possession of flash and dreamweaver programs very recently, and tutorials - one of which i have already kind of conquered) to make my fuckin awesome-ass website, and some sweet-ass animations with some serious (seri-ass?) comics and drawings on it. this threat may sound empty, but that's just your head.
i joined uber.com a month or two ago, and i have yet to actually use it, still not sure if i will, but when my website is finished, i'm going to try a more "professional" approach to blogging, by starting a new one, that doesn't involve me writing things on it when i'm drunk or pissed off at a guy. i also got a new scanner, and i'm ready to try it on like a new pair of... skinny jeans...? are skinny jeans uncool yet? are we back to bell-bottoms now? i'm so confused.

i can't be bothered to write about anything i've been working on (or will be devoting time to), because then i might get a false sense of completion or satisfaction, and that's just awful. so i'll just upload some artsy crap shortly. things are looking up. my drawing has been improving, my writing (blogging notwithstanding) has been improving, my layouts have been improving, hell maybe even my looks have been improving (except for this "morning 'under the nose' dryness" i've been experiencing.... fucking winter).

to contradict what i just wrote, (for the people who actually read the few i posted). i'm doing more of the comics i did with the ambiguous title "the list" seen here, and i'm trying to shift my focus from being entirely auto-bio (which i'm beginning to realize doesn't mean "YOUR LIFE STORY... no seriously, every corn flake, every snow flake, every skin flake" but means "edit for funny/deeply tragic moments... no fuckin' backstory - rewrite if necessary") to a lot of fiction. i'm actually becoming insanely excited about the one i'm doing for class, and can't WAIT til it's done. it's going to be 22 pages (as per instructors teaching).

i've had all these links to post on here, but trying to decipher my bookmarks bar is torture, so i'll just post the ones i can currently think of.
the french are totally on it right now with the advertisements:
this KIT-KAT commercial is so amazing, i actually went out and totally bought one after (and then i remembered how much i don't really like them. but i kind of liked the strawberry ones. are those still around?) i can't even believe this is an ad.
SO GOOD
AND BY THE LOOKS OF IT, it's to be... CONTINUED.

and the one for ORANGINA... new respect here. never again will i pronounce it like it's a bottle of fruity genitals.
you can watch it in its lower quality below (youtube) or the actual website which is SO much better.


I ordered "madame tutli-putli" off the nfb website (it's one of the oscar noms). i can't wait. it's 17 minutes long. i used my work visa gift card. i knew there was a reason i hadn't been buying my weekend lunch burgers with it. MY FIRST ONLINE PURCHASE.


oh and i was doing a little research on some animators i like, and i came across michael patterson's (aha video, and paula abdul video) student animation "commuter" (1981). i can't figure out how to embed it, so here's the link:
COMMUTER

Ralph Bakshi's book UNFILTERED comes out in a couple months. I'm really on the fence about him. On the one hand i LOVE the animation and characters and TOTALLY love PARTS of his movies. but i never seem to love his movies as a whole, like i more or less just want to condense and watch. i will probably buy it if i have any money lying around, because i find his concepts and his view on animation extremely interesting and relevant.

i finally joined a gym... at the dufferin mall of all places. i want to be able to snap someones neck with my thighs in exactly one month time.

i went to see CLOVERFIELD on opening night (SPOILER!!!!). i really really really wanted to like it (the same thing happened to me with art school confidential). and it's not even like i disliked it. i found the intro to all the characters really engaging, and the commentary of hud the cameraman enjoyable and relatable. but there was something that just fell flat and failed to really hook me/frighten me in all of the events in the middle. i realize that they were trying to capture this like "essence of reality - panicked city; a view from a desperate civilian in love" - but a movie is still a movie, and i want to taste some fuckin' meat in my sandwich. if it ended with them in the helicopter - as the "beast"(?) bites into it, it would've been so much better. but it just went ON... and ON... and ON. the ending was so fucking bad, i was embarassed. like i WANTED them to die. even if it had stopped with them surviving the helicopter (which was SO far-fetched as it was) it should've ended when the mega-dino-zilla saw them. NOT UNDER A BRIDGE WITH A CRY-BABY EMO MOMENT. i'm not saying don't see it if you haven't. it just felt contrived in the 'hey this is what would really happen/how people would behave' scenes.... also take note, i'm in no way a film critic or a writing critic and one of my favourite movies is sleepaway camp. so you be the judge. now go spend your money.

i'm at my parents place tonight, and they're repainting the upstairs, so i'm exiled to my moms "office". i'm SO hungry, but i think my dad's watching a softcore porn in the living room (i keep seeing clips of ambient skin through the glass doors) and i might have to chew my own arm off before i can get to the kitchen.

uggg...


THE END.

thar she blows

still not sure how i feel about this
but i have hope





WATCHMEN


my stomach has been killing for days now. i haven't really had any appetite at all. i think i have an ulcer, i hope it goes away. i feel better, but yeah. anything that might interfere with my holiday binge-drinking; not cool.
it was nice to see my brother back from new zealand, i wish he would've stayed there though.... you know, so i could go stay with him for free, being family and all.


lying in bed watching x-files and cutting out pictures for my comic journal thing for class.
very relaxing.

god this blog blows now.
hopefully all the christmas presents i want to make (due to cheapness) will be done in time.

talking in my sleep

so i guess i haven't updated in over a month... technically i did, but i deleted it. i had a 'wanted' photo up of an asian model that attacked me at the beaver. that was the only exciting part. the rest was just me bitching about not sleeping and getting sick from too much homework.
and sorry, i haven't been reading anyone else's blogs either, you could've all died for all i know.

today was the last day of the semester, i still have make up classes next week, but my mood has improved dramatically in the past 7 hours. christ, i barely made it out alive. i was shaking in class when i was trying to ink, because i was so tired from pulling 2 all-nighters in a row (with short delusional naps) and going back on the caffeine (red rain 4/$3.99) for one last hurrah. i was going to go out tonight, but my body was saying "no, no, no". so i started reading CELL (which has nothing to do with bees, contrary to what i thought before haha) that's been sitting in my room for like 2 months waiting. and i've been going on a mad downloading mp3 spree.

so i've discovered all these songs that went unnoticed to me in the past like 5 months because of school, alcoholism (well... no more than you) and general disinterest for anything current. but as it happens, always in waves (every 2 years) i start paying attention, get into it for a short intense while, get bored, then fall back out of it for another 2 years. why? fickle. i fuckin LOVE music, like to the core, but i'm so picky about the sounds i like, although i like to think i enjoy a variety of genres of music, and i do, i have 3 basic emotions i want fulfilled by music (one per song), and there tends to be a particular mood to match a particular genre - and i get really addicted to the feelings i get from music (moreso in the summer, when i can bike in the warm night air!). i fully expect whatever i'm listening to, to perform as a mood altering experience. and ... ugggg, i hate to say this, because i don't know ANYTHING about music, but i get so protective and snobby about the songs i love (i guess i also get like that about certain comics, books and artists too - like as if i'm the only person who has discoered this magical secret, and i don't want to share it), and nothing feels personal or genuine if its current and liked by everyone, or if it's become some kind of fad/bandwagon. does that make sense? i used to always get so mad when i'd hear songs i was secretly obsessed with (so rarely) when i was out (i'm not talking songs i like to just dance to, because that's awesome - i love to hear songs i like out! i mean, like my personal stash of FAVOURITES). it's so fucking stupid. it's almost like knowing someone else in the world, or same room (that say, has a crew cut, baggy cargos and like blue hair, or one of those ironic t-shirts...is fucking dancing around being like "OH YEHHHH I LOVE THIS SONG!!! BURP!!!" ok where is this going?) is getting the same satisfaction out of MY FAVOURITE thing makes me so nauseous and ruins it. however, i LOVE sharing the same favourite songs with close friends, dancing around for hours with it on repeat. me and cam b used to do it all the time, i miss it.

i still obsessively listen to some of the same songs i was obsessively listening to years and years ago. why? they're the ones that didn't get tainted!!! so i can hold this pure connection with it. hahahaha. i'm so gross. i keep forgetting to look up laws regarding it, but i reallllllly want to use some clips from songs (i mean ideally a full song but...) i am in love with to make animations. like, if i put my headphones on, in my bed in the dark, and i listen to certain songs, i can feel the energy of the song and my ideas all around me (no i don't do drugs or smoke the ganj) and see this whole video going on before my eyes, and it gets me... SO FUCKIN EXCITED. but we'll see. i don't even have the skills to do what i want yet. i'm turning off my brain for a couple days.

anyway, i guess this song came out like ages ago, in the summer or something, but i just found it. of course i like it, because it "samples" from an older song i already had... ((80s... sigh, i'm so predictable, i don't care about dj or fashion trends (as my lack of "cool" would demonstrate), it's been the only era i've been consistently excited by for like over 10 years. so sad.)) but i actually like it way better than the original, and i cannot stop listening to it.

Armand Van Helden


the video reminds me of SISTER ACT 2.
i half expected some inner-city nun to come out doing double-dutch in her habit.


anyway i have a lot to write about, i guess. probably just like various reviews on my tv shows, and something equally boring... maybe shampoo or exfoliants.
anyway i'll be uploading stuff. drawings from school, like characters, or cartoon animals, or maybe layouts if i clean them up. and then once the holiday gets going, comics. i just need a few days of chilling, getting wasted, breathing, laughing and generally laying around. no one probably reads this now anyway. i hope i can drag my sorry ass out of bed early enough to hit the mall before work tomorrow.

i'm really excited to go out tomorrow night. i just want to dance my face off.

i'm standing in the middle of life with my pants behind me

room with a view

his hat had that scrolling text, i think it said "PROCESS POWER".

reading week... didn't really happen. i was busy and spent the time i wasn't busy, totally vegetating. and now i'm back to being swamped. i think i'm dropping a class. 1 part need of sleep. 1 part not exactly enjoying the "teaching style". and i'll leave it at that.
but it's ok, because i have my amazing class every week, that reels me back in. graphic storytelling. SO GOOD.

taking a break from the grind, to go explore a local bar with laura for ONE drink.
ONE. it's 8something pm and my eyes are already going all bleary.
i guess i should find a bra to put on.
i'm gon' be up allll nite.
animal drawing.
fuck man.... fuck.

and i guess it's halloween. i wanted to go out, but have been playing a disinterested hand this week. although having a beer for half an hour with laura and edgar, is definitely awesome compared to halloween 2006, when i woke up the next morning to see "FUCK YOU FOREVER" written on my drafting table in hair glue... haha... oh ex-boyfriends, who doesn't love 'em. just don't give them keys, huh?

oh, and i hate to make this post positive, but i thought i had fucked the volume on my shitty "free with a phone" mp3 player, and was really bummed, because i like to BLARE it on my bike. so i was all melancholy when i came home, and then i tried on the off chance my ipod which i haven't been able to use in 2 or 3 years?... well it charged. IT TOTALLY works again, and i think it's because i used to try and charge it on my computer, but i was never really supposed to. SO HAPPY. all of my george michael, dmx, 2livecrew, queen, gang of four and buzzcocks and whatever else i haven't listened to in ages.

wow, this was a totally engaging post.
no drawings or comics, youtubes or art shows.
hope y'all enjoyed it.

FIST THAT PUMPKIN!!!!!

you're so hot, you're making me a sexist

i've had these like stupid youtubey things to post for a while now, but i keep waiting til i have a proper post to upload them... well since that's taken me a while, i've forgotten all but one. and that's because of the haunting meoldy that charmed my icy heart.
ricky gervais was actually
TOTALLY
FUCKING
HOT
wouldn't you totally hit that???



can you even believe it???
i mean, now, he's like all chubby and loveable, but who would've thought like 20 years ago he'd be someone that could inspire pants-throbbing and crotch gesticulation.

anyway, i keep spending way too much at wal-mart on "necessities". it's kind of annoying. can i also mention how ridiculous they are, that 2 times since i moved to this area (may) i've been in there and bought an R rated movie. ok. both times i've gotten ID'd with the ladies refusing me until i showed them.... i'm sorry but since when did i start looking 17? like i snuck out and want to buy a scary movie without my parents knowledge? give me a fucking break. exercise what little power you have old bag!
i also need to find a way to stop drinking pop. it's like, i never had this problem until recently. i feel like my body is 50% dr pepper. but i mean, since it has dr in the title, shouldn't that mean it's healthy?

my family is coming down today. my brother is MOVING to new zealand in a week. i'm really excited for him, but also sad. mostly because i miss my friends there. hahaha. check out this awesome poster my friend HADLEY did. i'm not really into the gossip anymore, but nice posterrrrr.


i'll update something of my own in the next couple days, although i wouldn't hold my breath... unless it's bad.

... oh, and now i can hear one of the whores upstairs yelling at her slimeball boyfriend, which means i'm sure in an hour i'll hear sobbing and some more jann arden playing. the next time that happens i'm going to sing along really loudly and mock sob at her... guys.... my street justice bone is getting itchy. someone better soothe it before i take matters into my own hands!!!!

yabba dabba die

a friend sent me this link and i almost croaked.
HYUNGKOO LEE
his work is SO FUCKING AMAZING
this guy makes cartoon animal bones!
out of resin and aluminum


look! roadrunner and coyote!


he also does these lovely studies of them.




i was going to do my skeletons for class really basic, but now i want to make them sort of inspired and careful and beautiful like these. although i'm sure the closest i'll come is "paper only half destroyed by eraser", "a muddy mix of abstraction and representation" or "i think this thing might be dead".

this guy has totally changed my perspective on bones. i now find them exciting.
(well i mean i always found some bones exciting, but that kind doesn't stay still for very long).

i also found these on his site by accident

recognize this song?

ummm that's because it was actually done 20 years ago.

when i watched this trailer on a movie i just got, i was just like "uhhh...."
the score for this movie was done by GOBLIN (the song is tenebre). i think they either did most or all the scores for dario argento movies.
good place to steal from... oops i mean "sample". (i don't understand dj culture, clearly). if you download the original it's pretty much the exact same fucking thing - and who can blame anyone, 80s horror movies have the totally best scores ever.

maybe people already knew this. frankly i don't give a shit about contemporary music, but i thought i'd post it anyway, because i always find this kind of shit shocking.

hot spot, wet spot, liver spot, sex pots, metal pots, pock marks, head starts.

sometimes i like to google myself.
i found out a Neptune Moon is named Larissa. i would imagine i'm more of a star, but from what i can tell moons are rarer. so there. i may eventually impact neptunes atmosphere. i was also a lover of Poseidon in greek mythology. which is really the hottest god to me. i mean, he's basically the alpha-merman. king of the sea. imagine you could have sex like a dolphin. hey did you know dolphins are the only mammal besides humans that gang-rape it's females. just some trivia.
here i am!

i'm not so hot on my last name (sorry dad) it's just really boring. so i had to reaffirm that it was okay by looking up others with the same surname. so i'm ok with it now. there's dylan thomas, isiah thomas (american boxer), linn thomas ("american exotic model"), and roy thomas (comic book writer/editor and stan lee's successor as editor-in-chief at Marvel).
i don't exactly know what this proves.

this weekend i got loafed on by a bird, stuck my hand in battery acid and saw COREY HAIM (christ, no need to convince me of the perils of cocaine abuse) on queen street.
do you remember him? of course you do. because 80s nostalgia is just so fucking trendy. i did a speech on him when i was in school in new zealand (2001)... i think i was supposed to pick something fashion related, but nevertheless... i did it on corey haim and corey feldman, and entitled it "THE COREYS: 80s FAME TO 90s SHAME". and i think the only person in the class that actually enjoyed my powerpoint presentation of nude movie stills, and out of context quotes was my teacher, rachel, who always brought harlequin romance novels to class. i wish i got my speech back, cuz it was actually really funny.

i have so much god damned homework right now. if i thought somehow burying myself under an avalanche of booze, boys and books would help i would so go scream at the bottom of a snowy orgied peak... but yeah... i'm FUCKED. i'm at that point where i'm so overwhelmed that i actually am too frozen to even begin...
ah... baby steps.
i'm so looking forward to reading week, even though it's actually going to be homework week. there will be a lot of drinking and crying happening. i also get to see my brother off (hopefully) before he moves to new zealand to work at some company for my moms friend. i'm really excited for him... aaaand awesome awesome becca got me a free pass to see MULBERRY STREET at the after dark film fest. GOD I LOVE HORROR.

i really want to learn more about the genre. i want to learn how to write for comics and stories and film even in that specific genre, i'm just not sure how one does that. i guess studying specific films and novels maybe. another thing to add to my to do list. christ it's long. there's not enough hours in the day.

there's a PLANET AID donation bin at the GOODYEAR at dundas and dufferin now. so if you have clothes to donate you should. i used to work at the one on yonge, and i know for a fact the underloved, undersexed and the very willing to show newly transitional appendages transvestites that shop there would absolutely love any black crocheted vests, pvc thigh-highs or hot pink booty shorts you may have.

i wish that i had someone to make me eat sensibly. i've stopped eating mcdonalds and taco bell. i'm actually slowly going off meat again... it just tastes like total fucking crap to me these days, and i have no clue why (with the exception of pepperoni on pizza) it smells and tastes like skin sewage. but cheese always seems to be on sale, so i've been buying those huge marble bricks that give me total acne face. and then cutting huge chunks and letting them melt into oily slicks on my tomato or fiesta vegetable soup... it tastes SO FUCKING GOOD.

photos.

one of these racks is not like the other, one of these racks just doesn't belong


anyway, i still really want to have a ouija board party.
i don't know if it's the worst idea EVER. but i want to do something totally haunting around halloween. i really want to get in the spirit, so to speak.
everyone HAS to get high (and trust me, i get high maybe once every 3 years, because it freaks me out so much, i can feel every vein and organ and muscle matter... SCARY), everyone MUST participate... in the ouija boarding, and the seance... i think everyone should pick a specific person to contact. i'm going to look into how to do it. i want to set up a videocamera to record any paranormal activity, should it occur. i'm not sure more than a small handful of people would think this is actually a "good" idea, but that's allllll you need. i also don't really know if i want it done at my place, because i'm convinced i used to suffer from some kind of parasomnia, and i could swear i was haunted by an incubus. (or i just have a really vivid imagination).


BOO!

isn't that right hostess judy

i would just wait to update but i felt in keeping with the spirit of blogs, i had to post my celebrity sighting.
on my break, when i went to get food today, i saw jude law on the street corner (queen + bathurst aka injun' crossing). and i contemplated being a total jerk and running out screaming "JUDE! JUDE! SIGN MY TITTY" but i was too hungover. so instead i phoned work, and edgar waited motionless in the window to take a photo of him when he walked by. haha. in movies he's hot in a charmingly boyish kind of way, but in person he looks like a stylish euro-rapist.
UPDATE!!! here's the photo! doesn't it look like he's having a heart attack?!?!


and apparently paris hilton came in this week and bought $600 worth of paint. god fucking knows what creative genius would spew forth from her nimble fingers. i can't imagine anything besides paintings of landscapes with chihuahuas or paintings of herself doing some kind of cutesy pose in a landscape holding chihuahuas.

i decided to go wild with laura last night, since i haven't for a while. bad idea. we ended up narrowing our choices down to a drag show or the boat (haven't been there in 2 years) but ended up in a reggae bar. it was... an experience.

after work i just felt like chilling and drawing. i've decided before i start doing the animation i'm doing the music for, a good exercise would be to try and do some for songs i already know and like. i'm doing this in a loose, gestural style sort of like a more fleshed-out animatic. i know exactly what song i'm doing first, cuz whenever i'd listen to it, i'd always picture it with a completely animated video anyway. here's some roughs i just did randomly when trying to think of what one of sub-characters would look like.



no clue as to how i'll get it on my computer after it's all drawn and coloured. my scanner is a hunk of junk, my camera doesn't really work now... and it's looking like creative suite will take 2 weeks to download, but that's okay because i won't have the drawings finished for 2 or 3 weeks anyway.

i forgot to post this before, so when i was looking up information on eli roth's new in the works movie (an adaptation from a stephen king novel) "CELL", which is based on the theory that bees are being fast killed by cellphone waves... and somehow this creates zombies... of course. i decided to look into it futher. "The alarming decline in bee populations across the United States and Europe represents a potential ecological apocalypse, an environmental catastrophe that could collapse the food chain and wipe out humanity".
apparently the cellphone theory has been disproved, but it's true, bees all over the world are dropping dead rapidly (in some places in the states and europe up to 80%). and einstein proved that as soon as bees are gone, the human race has exactly 4 years to live. there is speculation that it's caused by a simultaneous accumulation of bee diseases (many were found dead with systems full of fungi), mites from asia, pesticides, new toxins introduced to bees through genetically modified food, or through the g-m insect-resistant genes. i don't even understand the practical application of modifying food in any place that isn't 3rd world country. but for the most part scientists are drawing a huge blank as to why this is happening. guys wtf? why can't people stop fucking with nature. when all is said and done, sometimes i truly think i want to move away to some secluded well-wooded area on a mountain with a hot guy and some friends, and a reservoir that naturally ferments itself into alcohol, and just prepare for the worst. if it isn't smog or global warming, it's going to be toxicity levels, deep-sea pollution or dead bees, bombs, diseases... it's all a bit much sometimes.

it's just a crime of passion baby, don't hold it against me

i'm not really sure how to update this anymore,
i don't have any exciting photos, and i haven't scanned any school work on my tiny shitbag 2-in-1.
so what have i been doing? i don't know, i think i regularly sleep 5 hours a night at most. i'm not sure if this is how second year is sposed to be, or if i'm just terrrrible at time management. nevertheless, i'm enjoying the work, i'm enjoying being so busy i have nothing else to worry about other than "is this compositionally sound? how could i better move the eye around the page? am i awake or sleeping? have i pissed my bed? are these heart palpatations normal? what happens when your blood-caffiene level reaches 5 times the legal limit?" - which is a welcome change from the ridiculous things i worry about usually. although it has done nothing to change the fact that i feel like i haven't been laid in months (which i guess is because i haven't), it's so fucking aggravating. like i don't even want some annoying boyfriend. when are the god damn japanese going to come out with a cheap, effective, totally marketable to the general public sex doll?... or something resembling the hot and sometimes dead dad from SUPERNATURAL

...ummmmm...
whatever.

god, you know what i'm talking about. i know there's a time frame when you get over it, and just sort of accept the fact that sex isn't a guaranteed thing, and by that time it's really easy to discern who's disgusting and boring and lame, because rejection, rationale and sobriety make you really choosy again... but i'm not there yet. i'm at the "wow, everyones attractive" phase... you know "look at how that coarse hair swirls around that large pink nipple like an asteroid belt, and it's whispering 'come with me into the universe, let me show you how loving our nourishing nothingness can be', or... wow... look that guy has jeans on... with a fly... oh man... there's something TOTALLY under that fly that i could have sex with!!!!" I JUST WANT TO BE TOUCHED! in a hygienic, sterile, non-committal yet extremely passionate fashion.
seriously, donate to my rubber-friend foundation. all forms of payment acceptable.

i thought about going out tonight, but then i started reading a bit, tried to pop a zit, ate a popsicle and lay around drinking the other half of a bottle of some cheap red (good for circulation guys). and began drawing. i've had all sorts of ideas for a short-ish animation to work on, in life drawing the other day it all seemed to come together in my head, so that's what i feel like doing in my free time now, as opposed to attempted home-wrecking. i'm also making the "score" (HAHA!) for it in garageband. no clue what i'm going to do it on, in or anything. it'll probably turn out to be a total shit waste of time, but i spose it can't be any worse than any of my other wastes of time. such as watching HEROES... which i'm really excited to see back on. eli roth is directing an episode, so you know it's going to be suhhh-weet.

i went to union station by myself to draw on monday, it's nowhere near as fun as going with other people, and i felt really on edge, but then there's always at least one horrendous gem that stands totally still for at least 15 seconds. i've thought about going and having a pint or whatever at bars near here to draw, i just don't want some creepo portuguese man trying to paw at my luscious youth and delectable scent. maybe i'll go to yorkville and get bought chocolate martinis by rich business men with casual comb-backs.

i tried learning some dutch this week over podcasts, while doing homework (that being because i wanted to learn one of my two "native" tongues, the other being italian) and well... ew. giving up on that one pretty quickly. anything that sounds like what i do in the morning shower in the dead of winter... i don't think that's going to get me put into the "hot hot hot" category any time soon... guess the aryan fantasy will have to be put on the backburner for now.

seeing as how i bought the BLACKSAD comics 1 and 2, and they both happen to be in spanish (don't ask) i've decided i'll learn that. for a while i used to get spanish sub-titles (always on when leno was on, not that i watch leno) and i realized it would probably be kind of easy to learn. so that's going to be my new podcast conquest (p/s - podcasts are going to save my life this year, i can feel it). anyway it has some really beautiful drawings in it... i kind of told one of the guys at silversnail when i was overly excited to see it on the shelves that when i first saw the art i loved it so much i wanted to punch/beat the book i was driven so wild... or something graphic and sexually violent... kind of embarassed to go back now, i know how creepy customer comments get circulated.


ainslie (and schoolmates) is (are) working on a documentary for her (their) end of semester project. it's about fan fiction/art and its' subculture... which just rules so hard. i wish carolyn and i (CAROLYN!!!!!!) would have gotten our buffy comic done now... i think ainslie got in touch with people at SPACE. oh how i miss satellite. anyway, i'm going to do the art for it... "art".... ha... the lettering for the intro "THE ART OF FANDOM" and without giving anything away, other drawings. probably in black and white... and i'm intent on finding a way to sneak in my own likeness.

still haven't gone to see resident evil 2 yet.
i finally found the PERFECT womans deodorant. for a long time i wore guys ones, because all the baby-scenty stuff makes me nauseous. it's the perfect smell. i won't tell you what it is of course, but it's what sweat dreams are made of.

i think lindsay lohan is some kind of amphibian.
it all makes sense, just look at her, look at that skin.
i bet when she dies she'll naturally pickle and you'll be able to find her in a trinket store like one of those cane toad australian coin purses.


ahhh this post felt really good.

oh and i'm stealing charlene's ideas of using tags, i don't know what they do, but they look fun.

SUCCESS!!!!!

since the beginning of the summer i've had this song STUCK in my head,
but for the life of me, i couldn't remember the lyrics, so whenever i'd get really drunk i'd start reciting
BEE BOH BOAH BYE EEY AYE EEY AYYYEE
ALL SUMMER this was stuck in my head and driving me nuts (weirdly enough cuz i'm pretty sure it was a mid 90s song). usually when you get a song stuck in your head you don't know you can lyric search it, but how the hell do you search "bee bop bideeayayaya" or whatever?
a little while ago andre started playing it at parties (my sister told me for me, but i don't know about that, ha), and so i'd be like wooo! SHAKEY SHAKE IT! but always too drunk to remember any key words (and always forget to ask him the song name soberly). but JUST NOW as i'm lying on my bed checking my messages, and yelling into laura's room, some scrub drove by blaring it and i caught the words "through my miiiiiiiind".
so i finallllly found it

THE BOMB - THE BUCKETHEADS

i like how they clearly HAD to insert the lyrics part way through so people wouldn't be like "what???"


apparently i'm not the only one to mistake the lyrics in this song, i also found this on the internet:

ACTUAL LYRICS:
These sounds fall into my mind.

COMMON MISHEARD LYRICS:
Pizza swirling through my pants.
Peas, pies, burgers, chips and rice.
Cheese fries boogie in my mind.
Each time boogie to my mind.
Squeeze black pudding through my eyes.
This cheese blows my mind.
Fifan sucker took my mind.
Tea towels runnin' through my mi-i-imind.
Please no pudding in my pie.
Cheese style's runnin' through my mind.
Beans on toast, you blow my mi-e-i-e-ind.
Beantown boogie to my ma-aa-an.
Beantown, put it in my eye.
My p**** is swollen all the time.
Peace signs swirling through my mind.
Cheese clowns dancing on 'The Grind'.
Pizza push it up my thigh.

AHAHAHHA what a delight.
and i can totally see how you would hear any and all of those lyrics, and i love how so many of them are food-related.

man if i ever write a song, it's gotta be like that.
its kind of like a musical rorschach test.
a)
b)
c)

a)i see the face of a snarling, ready to pounce wolverine/wild dog.... but then when i looked at it again, i saw two winged pigs flying upwards trying to pull a missile.
b)i see two fat kids reachiing up to fight for food at a table.
***didn't realize it til later, the second one is actually the first one inverted.
c)i don't know that i should actually post what i see on this one... but it looks like someone REALLY sat on that photocopier at an inappropriate time of the month

whatchoo see?

wearing a bra changed my world

i don't really feel like digging deep for this entry, i just felt like updating
i finally have a computer as of today, after having to scam off my sisters old one, and then when that conked, sneaking to use her new one, so yeah... finally after like what? a year and a half or something.
it's awesome. my own desktop background!!! download all the porn i want!!! all the music i want!!! watch dvds in THE PRIVACY OF MY OWN ROOM! and finally maybe get some kind of website on the move... and... animations!!!!
even though i'm not in the animation program technically, i bought a used animation table w/lights/disk/peg, etc for cheap off this guy that went to my school that's moving to china or something.
so here are some things to look at, which you should.

trailers i found for animations showing at the festival this weekend, next year i am SO going, even if it involves getting on a bus alone and sleeping at a hostel where i'll catch crabs... in fact, i'd take preventative measures by waxing and rubbing on whatever it is you rub on
a trailer for ARK


preview for "la ballade des enfarines"... this is actually quite depressing, this girl (julie rocheleau) is from montreal and is a year younger than me... oh god... ok moving on


here is a japanese animation i found randomly on youtube, man i totally hate youtube quality everything
UGOKIE-KO-RI-NO-TATEHIKI(1933)
Ikuo Oishi


now i have to tear myself away to do some layout/composition homework, i actually really want to do, but god dammit, why didn't i do this on the weekend? you guys, whoever "you guys" means, won't be seeing much of me til christmas. and by then i'll be superfat, because laura just started her job at Dufflets.. and she gets lots of freebies... oh god... so fat.
also as a sidenote, i have ty templeton for one class a week, and he's SUCH A GOOD FUCKING TEACHER. so if anyone has any friends or anything that just offhandedly want to take a comicbook class or whatever, he does weeknight classes for part-timers. it would be so worth your while. mark lent me a couple of justice league's he pencilled for, but i haven't had a chance to look at them fully.

oh... screw this, i just phoned hmv, death proof is only 23.99$, i totally already bought groceries this week... hello dufferin mall! goodbye homework! (just kidding i'll do my homework while i watch it!)

i can't wait for planet terror!

today is september 11th

do you ever have something (within your personality) that's been turned on so long, you actually can't turn it off, and in fact as time goes on, the knob that controls it (if anything does) seems to be slowly cranking it louder and louder, to a deafening volume... that's how i kind of have been feeling lately.
powerless to just stop myself from being me, and doing and saying exactly what i feel like in the moments that they happen.
i'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing, so i'm just sort of trying to ride it out.
god, could i be any cheesier.
school has me so psyched right now. last year i felt as though i was totally drowning. and this year even though it's only day 2, i just feel SO excited. i've never felt this way before about school. i just feel so thirsty to know everything i can, that's going to make me able to better express myself and create everything i want to create. such a good feeling.

nick had his art show, friday night, oh wow, it was so awesome. his art just keeps getting better and better, and i'm really proud of him. and as usual, my photos do no justice to anyones artwork, but nevertheless i'm posting them. the show is still on at LE GALLERY you should go (dundas, just west of ossington).
in keeping with my proudness post, i'm also really proud of my friend andrew. i should never have doubted his musical talent, his band DAWN OF HUMANS was really good, when i saw them like a week or so ago. really awesome. in fact, i'm also proud of my other friend nick! haha! so much pride! he's been making remixes of songs, and they are REALLY GOOD! oh and i'm so happy that laura moved in. i fucking love her. i wasn't sure if i could live with a good friend again after attempting and miserably failing with that not so long ago, but it's going really well, and i'm just yeah... happy. hey guys, whats going on? do i sound like i'm on ecstacy??? jesus. i'm just a lot happier these days, than i have been in a really long time.

i get my new computer tomorrow or thursday i think (depends on my student discount situation... man do i want that free ipod)
so here's nick's show (the paintings are his)
the sculptures are julie moons. i especially liked these first 2. they reminded me of jessica rabbit lips, and anything roger rabbit is fuckin sweet.


this was from our sushi-warming. it wasn't a party, although at one point we had quite a few people, it was all really good people. some people i would've liked to have over couldn't come, but all in all, it was pretty much my favourite people. it also renewed my faith, that not everyone is concerned with going to stuff with the most currently cool djs, where they're going to get photographed, or how much free coke they can score. i'm surrounded by good people... i know i made an ass of myself that night, but i know that no one that was there gives a shit, and loves me for it.
i also got to hang out with people i haven't hung out with in a really long time, like ronny and colin.
besides our sushi, which was saved by frank's genius sushi knowledge (... and pretty much all made by frank, i was totally useless, oh frank, thank you thank you) and edgar generously has given us his rice-cooker, sam made some SO GOOD dips aaargggh *dribble* and naomi brought some good cupcakes.
as per usual i got too drunk to keep taking photos, but i kind of ruined my camera by submerging it in smuggled wine on friday anyway... no more zoom function... i might go take it in to get fixed if i can... such an idiot.
unfortunately rachel wu will murder me if i post her hot upskirt photo... so you guys are missing out




i went to the beaver last night, because paul julien was djing, i ran into him a short while ago, and i really wanted to hang out with him. he played old-timey awesome stuff, that you don't ever hear in toronto. he's moving to BC with a girl he fell in love with a couple weeks ago. i'm really in awe and kind of jealous that he lives his life like that, he has since i've met him. just really passionately, i guess in a way i'm kind of unpredictable and spontaneous, but not with matters of the heart, i protect it like a crown jewel or some shit. but even if i didn't, there hasn't been anyone really that's even come close to inspiring me just to pack up my shit and leave town, and i hope i experience that before i'm too old to really enjoy it (but not til i'm done school... haha).

well guys now party-time summers over, and it's time to calm down, i better find a boyfriend to quell my raging libido during those long cold homework nights (just kidding... heh... not really)

when bad touching becomes good touching

yep, totally keeping this impersonal, trying hard to keep this impersonal, since august something 2007

oh, but on a slightly personal note, i think i'm psychic, i mean i've always kind of thought i had an alluring mystical quality about myself, but now i have proof!!!! haha
i had a dream last night about someone, kind of random, that they were in a car that exploded and they were set on fire and died. so i emailed him, cuz i was kind of scared he did die, he wrote back, weirdly enough, that last night he had been ultra sick with a major fever and the sweats.
I AM PSYCHIC! BOW TO ME YOU MERE PLEBIANS!!!! (or else i have an evil gift, a very evil gift, i need to harness to destroy my enemies)


moving along
excited to be back in school, and was so excited got insanely drunk with my classmates (CELEBRATION!) but today i'm feeling the horrors of drinking tap beer, supposed to go draw animals, i don't think it's mandatory, but i'm scared to leave my bathroom for longer than an hour.
anyway, photos
at char's

and you guys thought thongs were hot
granny panties are so this season

even though she got punched in the face, she's still hotter than you, feel it feel it


and now here are photos i totally stole off laura's facebook, all of them, til the end of this post
our JOE MATT stalk-files


breakfast at sunset grill. there were so many fucking wasps, but look! one wanted my food so badly, i really fed it that sausage, yeah drown in that maple syrup you tiny pointy piece of shit!
YOU WANT IT!!! YOU GOT IT!!!! YAAARRRRGGGGG!!!!
(i really hate wasps)


ok... going to try and pull myself together, and i think go with oliver to see if BMV has any of the books we need, but cheaper.

when the morgue gets warm

goodbye sherri, we're gonna miss you
hello laura, i'm gonna kiss you
when you move in tomorrow

this weekend was FAN EXPO
which for the most part, man, i wish i had a better camera - because the FREAKS WERE IN FULL EFFECT!!! holy shit! it was AMAZING. girls being pulled around on leashes! half-naked horny nerds. SO MANY MANGA FREAKS!!! manga-wigs... everything. where do these people get this shit??? i don't get it, i just don't get the whole manga thing, and god dammit, i never will.
i volunteered at the RUE MORGUE booth, which was awesome (thank you becca).

and i went to see DEMONS 2 (argento 1987) on friday night with laura (ALSO AWESOME).
when i was looking on youtube for a DEMONS 2 trailer, i found this instead, seriously, watch it... ITS HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!
YOU NEED TO WATCH THIS your life will be richer for it. trust me. brings new meaning to the term lipstick lesbian.
and if it even matters, i totally recognize her from an episode of 21 jump street, where she plays a 'roid-addicted gymnast.
NIGHT OF THE DEMONS 2 i need to own this movie at all costs.


before demons 2, they had a trailer for this argento movie, which i need to find
SUSPIRIA (1977)
so hysterical
(you can't tell in the small youtube version, but the title name is actually written in like veiny throbbing skin)


photos!
the coolest part of fan expo was definitely the horror stuff. i'm definitely into horror everything (well... movies and books), but i'm not even remotely close to being an afficianado, i own what i own, i like what i like, but i'm not like an active horror fan... i used to be REALLY into horror novels and stories, which was more accessible to me as a youngster (than movies - i remember having nightmares after watching cujo and IT for the first time in grade 6?), but this whole weekend made me kind of want to become more versed, learn up on some things.
here are some photos

MALCOLM MCDOWELL!!!!
check out his shiny head. remember how hot he was in CLOCKWORK ORANGE?

CHARISMA CARPENTER!!!!
yaya!!!!! (cordelia on BUFFY!!!)
and in keeping with my retarded star-struckedness last week, i got to butt in line to "meet" (ie: say something short to... seriously that bitch was just pumpin out the autographs, no photos with fans!) her, and i just screamed "I LOVE YOU!" and scampered off, then snuck back to try and get a photo.
WAY HOTTER IN PERSON. HOTTER WITH AGE. HOTT.


who loves GWAR?! who loves ass?!

i gotta hand it to these 3, they had impressive costumes


edgars bday, and of course as usual, once the party actually gets started, i never take photos (too drunk)

and then i tried to get some photos for a series i'd like to call "UP-SKIRT: party violation"
but none of them really worked

i went to see SPEAK OF THE DEAD tonight with andrew c
it was this thing at the bloor on GEORGE ROMERO
(sidenote: i was an extra on LAND OF THE DEAD... SWEET)
and it was showing part of the documentary being done on his career/life, preview of his new movie that will be at TIFF this year (so going! now i have a friend to go with to these things!) and a q + a session with him.

i left with a huge smile, feeling really inspired. i used to write scary stories and stuff all the time when i was younger (i remember in grade 8, writing at least 15 pages on a computer of this horror "novel" i was crafting... haha)

...
decided to go through my blog and delete a whole bunch of personal bordering on emo posts. no more of that!

daylight come and me wan' go home

wow
summer is pretty much over now.
on the one hand i'm like NOOOOOOO sweet sweet freedom and bike-riding
on the other hand my room will stop being an oven, i'll be getting a computer and i'm SO excited for this year of school
i am psyched for EVERY SINGLE CLASS (last year... well last year, was foundationy stuff, which i for the most part struggled with, mainly because i'm not really into representational anything... yes yes, although learned a lot, useful things were learned)
BUT this coming semester i have drawing heads + features (UGGG@!!! YESSS!!!), cartooning, comic book layout + composition inking, backgrounds etc, cinematic storytelling... and well life drawing, etc. YESSSSSSS.
i'm also not going to wastrel around on my breaks this year, i spent too much money on vending machine crap and just chit-chatting, i'm all about getting down to business now.
i'm not sure who all is teaching it, i think maaaybe richard pace, who i really liked having last year, and maybe ty templeton? i know bojan redzic is, and i think he totally rules. he's such a hard-ass and he scares a lot of people, but he's actually really fucking hilarious, and his drawings are INSANE.



i'm volunteering at rue morgue tomorrow and part of saturday, i wanted to do sunday too, but then andrew got fired, so i can't. i'm looking forward to maybe getting to watch some awesome horror movies and stuff.

i realllllly want to go to THIS
just not sure how i'd get there or how i'd pay to get there, or where i'd stay


i'm going to post the joe matt stalking photos when laura moves in (monday) cuz they're on her camera... yeahhh.... it's not a good idea to get really trashed in the general vicinity of people you like admire and shit... because hearing "OOOHHmmmgshhh my ghosshshh i luuuurrvvvv youuuuuu" is only maybe flattering once or twice... not 8000 times. i don't think i'll elaborate any further.

here's some of my comic scores
i really liked the drawings in CORPSE (zach worton) and i wish i would've gotten more

this one is THE BEAST MOTHER
which you can get here
it was only $5, and just the cover alone was enough to sell me, the drawings and story were really cool too


ben's bday at the redroom

ooh look, i seem to have found another mirror

secret shots of southern comfort out of empty creamers... uhh... happy birthday ben, i'm too cheap to buy you bar beer



and to end this post with another NICK SNACK sighting
how exciting


actually that wasn't the end... this is.
mmm peter chung, so amazing (aeon flux).
found these ads he did (for a burger place?)
definitely not as into this style (because it's really computerized?) but i still appreciate it... yeah, a lot.


and then i found this one randomly... it's so sad, i don't think i can actually watch it again, but you should